Am I alone?

I was surrounded by people behaving as if everything was normal. Actually, I guess it is normal. And most seem to really like it; sales, shoppingbags, glossy magazines, fast food and iphones everywhere. I only feel out of place, and alone.

I was walking through the shopping center in the city as I suddenly realized my hands were clenched into fists. I was barely breathing, and as I caught my reflection in a window I saw a ugly frown on my face. It was noisy.  Was this panic? I had to walk through it as fast as possible. Quickly jump onto a bus leaving the city and count the minutes until I felt free again.

Do you know what I am talking about? Or am I alone in this?

I know I’m not alone. I have several friends who feel the same. And I think there are more of you out there?
All I want is to get back out into nature. Into places without four walls. Places with fresh air, rain, wind and the sound of birds. That’s where I can breathe again. It doesn’t matter which weather it is or if I’m alone there. I like being alone. But I also like for others to have amazing experiences in nature and feel loved by the elements. I wish everyone could go for a hike in a green forest, go kayaking on a quiet lake, feel the warmth of a rock face agains the body, or just look into a fire without a phone nearby. Nature can give us calm and peacefulness without having to do yoga or stress reduction courses. Something good happens to us in nature.

I just got back from a week in Norway and the feeling is even stronger. I’m an addict. All I want is to get back out there. To the simplicity and non-man-made world. Usually I can handle city-life better when I know I can stay outdoors for a long time after. ‘Luckily’ I have made many plans to stay there longer, of which one is a really fun expedition I will tell you more about soon.

First some photos from nature in Norway. It was part of a photo shoot for a Bergans catalogue, but I couldn’t help taking some photos too.
I might make another blog about behind-the-scenes of a photoshoot.

12 Comments on “Am I alone?

  1. I feel just the same.. ever heard of Frida Kahlo’s quote: ”I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it’s true I’m here, and I’m just as strange as you.”

  2. Javisst kan man ändra sig, ha flera olika upplevelser och gilla allihop! Det är härligt i livet, det finns färre regler än vad det ser ut att finnas för vad man får och kan göra :-)

  3. Jo, det finns fler… Fast jag har ”i mitt tidigare liv” hängt en hel del på shoppingcenter och tyckte då att det var ”livet”. Typ. Men saker kan ändras. Så blev det i alla fall för mig. Nu försöker jag mer och mer skapa ett liv med mer tid utomhus. Inte alltid helt lätt, men ett steg i taget så…

  4. Carro, allas upplevelser räknas! :-) Därför tycker jag det är intressant vad du läser in i min text. Jag skrev den bara med kärlek till naturen i hjärtat, och att jag inte känner mig hemma i shoppingcenter. Absolut inget ont mot de som kan känna sig hemma på båda platser och vara lycklig i det.

  5. Jag brinner kanske av lite mycket ibland, men det i sig är egentligen ett framsteg för mig, o du verkar ju kunna svara för dig ;
    Vackra bilder! Jorå, jag gillar naturen. Också ;)

  6. Överallt! Jaaaa det är min upplevelse, men den räknas kanske också? Ofta känns det som att du menar att man är en sämre människa för att man tycker om sms och andra materiella ting. Ibland så blir det så…..självrättfärdigande…….men jag kanske missuppfattar.

  7. Märkligt att du som pratar så mycket om att inte döma ändå dömer dem som tycker om att handla och ha en telefon. Det är knappast första gången.

  8. you are definitely not alone

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